here.

“why don’t you kneel before me and worship me anymore?”

• I’m selfish.
• I don’t want to have to do things outside of my comfort zone.
• I don’t want to give up my plans for yours.

Those are all the actual reasons I gave. But in the end He lead me to these verses in the Psalms that say:

1 Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD;
let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation.

2 Let us come before him with thanksgiving
and extol him with music and song.

3 For the LORD is the great God,
the great King above all gods.

4 In his hand are the depths of the earth,
and the mountain peaks belong to him.

5 The sea is his, for he made it,
and his hands formed the dry land.

6 Come, let us bow down in worship,
let us kneel before the LORD our Maker;

7 for he is our God
and we are the people of his pasture,
the flock under his care.
Today, if you hear his voice,

8 do not harden your hearts as you did at Meribah, ^[a]
as you did that day at Massah ^[b] in the desert,

9 where your fathers tested and tried me,
though they had seen what I did.

10 For forty years I was angry with that generation;
I said, “They are a people whose hearts go astray,
and they have not known my ways.”

11 So I declared on oath in my anger,
“They shall never enter my rest.”

“will you kneel before your Creator, will you bow down before me? will you let me deal with your heart?”

I didn’t answer with words. I simply knelt and was quiet.

“it’s not that I don’t know- but I want to hear it from you… will you turn it over to me?”

I was silent. But after a few minutes my heart felt like it was going to explode. I said:

“It’s going to be hard, I know. You still know me, but I don’t know you. But here I am, I will submit to your calling. I will follow your lead. I will learn to submit to you. I will let you deal with my heart. Take me.”

He said: “Finally, my Daughter is here…. “