dirty.

my heart was broken when the man i fell in love with, didn’t fall in love with me. since that moment when i looked in his eyes and saw the emptiness ive felt destroyed and hurt and broken hearted. since then ive allowed myself to be used by men so badly. i allow myself to be put in situations where nothing but trouble and a broken and abused heart can result. now love is simply trying to win the approval of men who i dont know or truly love because the man i love… doesn’t love me.

i am dirty. i am disgusting. and i will never be the same.